"Waking up this morning, I smile. Twenty-four hours are before me. I vow to live fully in each moment and look at all beings with eyes of compassion."-Thich Nhat Hanh
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| Sunrise over the Mississippi River |
Over the last month I have been
taught more about life then I thought I needed to know. I was content where I
was 29 days ago. I had gone on believing that I had finally arrived to where I
would stay. However, fate has other plans for me. I should not be the only one to learn a
lesson, I hope that he realizes that the grass is the same shade of green on
either side of the fence, but his side is going to be lonelier.
In the end I have discovered that I
don’t love being alone, but I can survive. I have learned that anger is a part
of me, but I do not have to allow anger to be all of me. I learned very quickly
to let go of the hate because it was hurting me more than him. Burning bridges
is what he has done, but I have learned that will power keeps people from
crossing back and respect keeps your past on good terms. He will never be able
to come to me for help. When everything
is on the line, it is those past bridges we have crossed where support can be
found in a time of need. I have amazing
friends who have been by my side this entire time. I regrettably never
appreciated the people around me until I needed them, and they were there. I
have become more mindful of me, which is incredibly self-centered and very
gratifying. Until I figure out who I am and where I am going it is going to be
all about me living in the here and now. I am going to go on all kinds of kick
ass adventures, catch up with old
friends, read all the books on the shelf, knock off some of those bucket list
items, and work harder than ever before to become something more. Until I
figure out things I will “Just keep swimming.” I expect I have more to learn.
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